madwomanwithabox

Sixteen years ago today, Waynette Maria McKnight Carlie died at Encino Medical Center from complications related to a glioblastoma brain tumor. She was my mother.


I wish I had more pictures of her, I'd post one, but I still try to post every year to keep her memory alive. She's the reason I read, the reason I write, the reason I hate the holidays. Yeah, the last one's bad, but it's part of who I am now. I try to focus on the first two, because it's the MAIN reason I have all of you as friends.

My mom was an amazing lady, who many say I look like, and I don't think I'll ever know a better person. But I did something really unforgivable when she was around: I took her for granted. This is my Christmas message, my GIFT to all of you, this year and every year because we really tend to not know what we have until it's gone.

You get one mom. She brought you into this world, and you don't get another. Love her or hate her, she's special in her own way, and you WILL miss her when she's gone. Call her, hug her, tell her that you love her, but God forbid she leaves you tomorrow, don't regret not having at least held her tight just one more time.

And to those of you with kids: hug them today, hard. Spend time with them, don't get so caught up in prepping for the holiday you forget to make sure they know they are absolutely loved by you and absolutely never, ever alone as long as you're around. Christmas comes and Christmas goes, but you're never going to understand that for them: you are special. You are irreplaceable. And one day, they're gonna remember those moments with you and it's going to get them through the tough times.

Be with the people you love like it's the last time you're ever going to see them, today and every day. And when you go looking for the Christmas star tonight, wave hello at my mom. She'll get a big kick out of it. ;p

Happy Holidays, everybody...and Merry Christmas, Mom.

Leave a ship here that I know, any ship (canon or AU, realized or unrealized, RP), and I will tell you my opinion on:

who is the big spoon/little spoon
what is their favorite non-sexual activity
who uses all the hot water in the morning
what they order from take out
what is the most trivial thing they fight over
who does most of the cleaning
what has a season pass in their DVR
who controls the netflix queue
who calls up the super/landlord when the heat’s not working
who steals the blankets
who leaves their stuff around
who remembers to buy the milk
who remembers anniversaries

I had to stop in and say I'm AWESOME 'cause I'm currently making the LOST GIRL Twitterverse follow everyone I know and lurve.

...carry on. AND PRAY I DON'T PIMP YOU NEXT, 'CAUSE THEN THE EYES. THEY WILL FOLLOW YOU. OR AT LEAST THE SIRENS AND WEREWOLVES AND ASH AND SHIT.

XD

• 09:12 @leximun Uh oh, who? #
• 09:17 @rogueapprentice Yes, but that's okay, we <3 you. :P #
• 10:11 @leximun ....GLEE!!! Oh, and btw, Castle will be talking to Alexis about a certain...found item. >.> <.< LOL #
• 11:13 @leximun He's already done it. :P *points at Alexis's blackberry* ;p #
• 12:09 @leximun @rogueapprentice Thank you, dahling, I'm made of fail today. Will cease to fail after stupid auntie visit is over. X| #
• 12:17 @rogueapprentice Bored? BORED? Castle says how can you be bored when HE'S around?!?! *facepalms at arrogant little shit of a muse* #
• 14:57 I don't CARE if you're Bill Pardy, you're not going to live in the village. #h&m #savemefrommybrain #
• 16:06 I wonder...how many of Hercules' labors could @OldSpice perform?... #
• 16:50 @OldSpice, I think I love you. Marry me? #oldspicemangroupie #toohotinheretonotbegoofy #
• 22:39 When your brain children start quoting Weird Al lyrics at their daughter, it's time to get help. #heartsandminds #musefail #

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• 10:08 @ChellyBean79 Honey. *BIG FAT HUGS* I is writing for you today? I know I keep saying that, but... #
• 13:04 Aaaaaaand once again, Monday is fired. FIRED. #
• 13:30 @ladyofbrileith @rogueapprentice AND SHE DON'T KNOW IT, BUT HER FEET SHOW IT, THEY'RE LONGFELLOWS...okay, no more corny. Promise. ;p #
• 13:41 @rogueapprentice CASTLE DOES NOT WANT TO BE A CULLEN KTHX. BUT BECKETT CAN TOTES BE BELLA AND HE WILL BE JACOB AND KILL EDWARD DEMMING KTHX. #
• 14:04 @rogueapprentice Castle strikes a dramatic pose and declares, on bended knee, that Kate is his own personal brand of heroin. #
• 14:05 @rogueapprentice And if he's going to go down this road, he'll go with a bang, and SPARKLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #
• 14:23 @rogueapprentice SHE IS SO DAZZLED SHE CAN'T COMPREHEND ANY OF IT. \o/ #
• 14:56 @rogueapprentice Castle is TERRIBLY amused by that. :P #
• 21:01 @ladyofbrileith CARNIVALE FTW. Somewhere in my brain there's a Ben. Sadly, no not!Samuel. Boo. LOL #

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• 09:31 @ChellyBean79 What was, wha happen? #
• 11:21 @leximun We...are talking about what to do with them. :P And WHEE!!! :D #
• 11:46 @leximun Gimme a call, more likely to find me. Not sure if I'm going home or to auntie's, and she never lets me online. Boo. #
• 13:11 @rogueapprentice @leximun She's...gonna make Castle do it? LOL #
• 13:25 @rogueapprentice @leximun Like hell! He says his daugher can't know he's boffing her roomie/strong female role model! #
• 13:25 @rogueapprentice @leximun Alexis can only know he FANTASIZES about boffing her. That's safe. Yup...don't ask me, the muse is INSANE. #
• 13:32 @rogueapprentice @leximun Eventually he'll tell her they're dating...eventually. Sans reference to angry monkey sex all over the hotel room. #
• 13:46 @leximun @rogueapprentice Yes, but Rick wishes to preserve the illusion that he's a thoughtful, considerate, totally NOT obvious dad. :P #
• 14:05 @leximun @rogueapprentice Castle isn't listening to you. He's a damn fine actor, so neener. :P #

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• 09:04 Tuesday is the new Monday. And, as a result, already fired. #
• 11:17 @crissangel All our best to your mom, Criss. Have a great day!! :) #
• 18:30 OMG. CASTLE. SRSLY, YOU DIDN'T JUST DO THAT. xD #heartsandminds #

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• 11:15 @rogueapprentice *hugs* i'm sorry, babe, that sucks!! #
• 11:15 @ladyofbrileith WHEE!!! Show us show us!!! :P #
• 12:19 @ladyofbrileith Hellooooooooooo, hottie!!! #briaissexy #redheadsarehot ;p #

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• 09:15 @rogueapprentice *pets* It beats the hell out of the reverse. Going in for a cake walk and getting DRAGO FROM ROCKY. ;D #
• 09:16 @ERIKAjaneC Here's one: Son of a...biscuit with ham and a side of bacon!! :P #
• 09:54 @leximun What are you up to, you bad girl? ;p #
• 10:03 @leximun EVIL. YOU TELL ME NAO. :P #
• 10:40 @zee_ali @leximun Be advised, I EXPECT A GROUP PHONE CALL SO WE CAN FLAIL AT EACH OTHER. ;P #
• 11:10 Random: Deborah Armstrong should be in the village for roller derby. #muserandom #briaknowswhati'mtalkingabout #h&m #
• 11:16 @rogueapprentice HEAT WAVE IS SO GOOD OMG. My aunt bought it. :P #
• 11:16 @ladyofbrileith No, I cannot. Not until I make you bring in Nick. *may be trying to make Lexie bring in Adam* *shiftyeyes* *IZ EVOL* ;p #
• 11:17 @ladyofbrileith But yeah...don't bring Faye. Cassie would kick her butt. *reverse psychology? Who, me? ;p* #
• 11:22 @leximun ...*dies laffing* #
• 11:31 @leximun @ladyofbrileith But without Nick, Cassie will fall right back into Adam's waiting arms. She's so lonely...and without Nick (contd) #
• 11:32 @leximun @ladyofbrileith Adam can't fall prey to Faye's wicked charms...what? I didn't say anything...*iz not enabling EVERYONE, really* #
• 12:01 Dear self: GET OFF THE KNITTING/CROCHET SITES. FINISH YOUR DAMN YOGA SOCKS FIRST. Love, me. #
• 12:55 @knightinqs *pets you* I looooove youuuuuuuu....;p #
• 13:06 @ladyofbrileith Ohhhh, honey. I'm so sorry. *hugs for you and him both* #
• 13:26 @ladyofbrileith Some won't. My dad's family did that to him when my grandfather died. #
• 14:06 @ladyofbrileith @rogueapprentice Team Edward...though my inner Alice baps me for it. And I mean Team EDWARD, screw Bella. :P #
• 14:54 Dear Echofon and Twitter, 'cause I don't know who to blame: You suck. No, srsly, YOU SUCK BALLS. No love, me. #

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